For my girls

I have often wondered who might be reading this, on the other side of the screen. Strangers, for sure, and probably they are the ones who make me feel most at ease about writing.

Maybe one of the few friends and family I have shown the blog. Maybe they love it, and maybe they think it’s a load of old nonsense.

Perhaps you found the blog, and maybe you know who I am. Do you think it’s ridiculous? (Still reading though?) or maybe you can relate to some of it too.

But there are two people I wonder and care about, more than anyone, what their opinion of this blog will be.

My two daughters.

Okay, so now it’s not so much of an issue. They can’t read for one, and they certainly haven’t mastered IT skills (although an 11 month old using an iphone is pretty impressive / worrying in equal measures). But that won’t always be the case. Will the blog still be there in their future? On the end of a click on a keyboard? Or will, in twenty years time these passages be swallowed into some technical black hole of the internet?

What would they make of my mutterings about motherhood.  Would they see it as a magical story book of our life as they grew up? Would they appreciate that I have protected their identity? Or would they still see it as an invasion of privacy? Would they be hurt that I confessed to finding it tough having them wake me up all night and drive me nuts? Or would they read the underlying tone of unconditional love that shines through in these memoirs of their childhood?

On my wedding day, my own Mother gave me a letter; it was an open expression of everything she wanted me to know about our time together as Mum and Daughter. How I was as a child, everything she loved about me, and thanking me for being the person I am. It will always be one of my most treasured moments. I know she did this as she lost her own mother far too soon – before she had a chance to hear those things from her.

Clearly, a love of writing and expressing feelings has been passed on to me, undoubtedly from her. We have joked, that she would be a brilliant blogger (if she could get past the IT side of course).

I have, of course, imagined the future with my girls. My ‘happy thought’ that gets me through the tough times of caring for two very dependent young children is the image of us enjoying lunch and shopping trips together. Becoming their best friend, supporting them through whatever life throws at them. Perhaps telling them on their wedding day, how much they mean to me.

(Of course, if that is they choose to or end up getting married – I would want them to know that whatever path their life takes I will be proud of them, and want them above anything to be happy and safe).

Maybe, I won’t be there to do that.

Either way, if you are reading this, I want you to know that you have been the best things that ever happened to me. One day you might be a Mother too, and then I think you will understand and laugh along to some of these memories I have shared. Hopefully I will be here to help you along, and let you know it will all be okay. Offer you some advice, a homebaked lasagne from the freezer and a bottle of gripe water.

Our time together so far has been the making of me, as your Mummy, and as a better person. Thank you for that.

Pure Happiness is an impromptu kitchen dance party together. Seeing you two grow as sisters; with one protective big sister always being there to catch you, little one, when you fall. Don’t ever let that change.

Becoming a mummy has taught me so much about putting others first – you two, predominantly. But, you know we would do it again a thousand times over rather than have our life back without you girls in it. Your innocence has charmed the pants off us, and everyone who knows you.

TG, you make us laugh so so much. A bright little spark who asks so many thoughtful questions. You are the best company, helping me look after your little sister with such kindness I didn’t think a three year old was capable of.

Dangermouse. Such a tiny feisty little dot. Your tenacity astounds us and already such a cheeky personality. I can’t wait to hear the conversations we will have, and see you running around which you just can’t wait to do. Loving and cuddly, you have been the most adorable baby. ‘Always happy’ as we are reminded by everyone who knows you.

Girls, be brave, life can be hard sometimes, but your wonderful family will always be there for you if you let them.

Try not to worry about everything. See the beauty in the simple things, and the world around you, like Daddy and I always showed you.

Laugh, sing, dance, play. But be sensible with peoples feelings, and look after your own body, it has to carry you a long way.

Daddy and I will always always be with you, in the very being that makes you – in the lessons we taught you, the memories we made with you, and overwhelming love we showered you with, every day.

x Mummy

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33 thoughts on “For my girls

  1. Jodie Allen (@beautybabyblog) Reply

    I think it’s safe to say your unconditional love really does shine through every word you write. I hope when your girls are old enough to understand they will cherish your words and they will serve as a lovely memory bank to look back on #twinklytuesday

    1. MMT Reply

      Thank you Jodie. Was a bit of a gushy post for me but one I definitely felt compelled to include in the blog x

  2. Ella Mathews (ex-Crazy Stork Lady) Reply

    Loved this. So beautifully written and heartfelt. Make sure you print a copy of this one off in the unlikely event the blog gets swallowed up into the ever expanding realms of the internet! x

  3. Nige Reply

    A fantastic wonderful post written with so much love thank you for sharing #bestand worst

    1. MMT Reply

      Thank you! X

  4. Anita Cleare (@thinking_parent) Reply

    What a lovely moving post and one that I am sure your daughters will cherish when they are old enough to understand it. #bestandworst

  5. Sarah Howe (@RunJumpScrap) Reply

    This is so beautiful and it is so obvious the love that shine through your posts for them. I think those pure happiness moments are the best and having 2 who love each other must be amazing to see! Lovely post and thanks for sharing with #bestandworst xxx

  6. chloelifeunexpected Reply

    Oh my gosh what is it with blog posts and sending me over the edge today. This has reduced me to tears! Your little ones have such a loving mummy. This is so, so beautiful. I’m glad you shared it on your blog and I’m sure they’ll get to read it when they’re older. x #twinklytuesday

    1. MMT Reply

      Ah, Thanks Chloe. Hope you’ve read some funnies to balance you out! Have a lovely evening x Sarah

  7. The Anxious Dragon Reply

    Firstly I dont think your girls will mind your blog, they are growing up in an age where our lives are put out there for people to share. They would probably be more peeved if you didnt share 🙂
    Secondly how could they not love what ypu write, this post especially is a beautiful testiment to your love for them.
    Thank you for linking up, Tracey #abitofeverything

  8. mackenzieglanville Reply

    So fab that you wrote this post, I often blog about my 3 children and hope that it is an amazing record for them. What lovely thing your mum gave you, my mum can’t write very well, so I’m not sure where my writing comes from, but not my parents. I think your girls will cherish your words xx #coolmumclub

  9. Harps Reply

    Your girls are so super blessed to have you! Your love for them shines through so bright. #coolmumclub x

  10. Angela Milnes Reply

    This is written so well and a lovely piece of writing for the future! 🙂 Angela x

  11. Mum in Brum Reply

    Wow, this post has literally brought a tear to my eye. Okay, I’m bawling!! Such a beautifully written and heart-felt post – your daughters will definitely read this one day, and one day (probably years after they first read it) they will realise how special it is and treasure every word. I often have the same thoughts about what my daughter will think but always come back to the thought that I would love to have been able to read my mum’s memories, thoughts and even frustrations of when we were growing up. Especially now I’m a mum myself. Thanks for sharing #coolmumclub

  12. Robyn Reply

    Great post, I really enjoyed reading this. I’m new to blogging and parenthood and it crosses my mind sometimes that it’s a fine line between having a bit of a public laugh (or vent) about the tougher things, and coming across as though I don’t absolutely love being a mum. Anyway, I think you cleared that up with this post, – your girls are lucky to have this public record of how precious they are to you, it’s lovely! #coolmumclub

  13. min1980 Reply

    That’s so lovely. I’m sure your girls will be super chuffed with your blog. I’m not so sure Piglet will love mine (or my mother for that matter!)

    1. MMT Reply

      I’m sure piglet will have inherited your funny gene. And anyway, you’ll still be writing blog posts called ‘Why I embarrassed piglet at his wedding’, ‘Caring for piglets kids while he’s at work’ and I’ll be hosting ‘coolgranclub’ 😉 x

  14. El Reply

    What a beautiful post! Had me nearly in tears. You are right- we should express our feelings, our hopes, our wishes and of course, our love for our children. They, no, we all need to hear it sometimes. #coolmumclub

    1. MMT Reply

      Thanks m’dear. Not my usual light hearted post, but felt a bit compelled to remind everyone I don’t hate my kids ha ha. Have a fab day, thanks for the lovely comments and linking up. Your blog is the nuts x

  15. Talya (@motherhoodreal) Reply

    I hope that when our daughters discover our blogs they will think we are loving mums with a bad ass mum sense of humour! #coolmumclub

    1. MMT Reply

      How could they not?! We’ll probably still be clinging on to the blog material they provide us with…imagine blogs titled ‘My daughter hasn’t called me for three weeks’, ‘coolnanclub’ and ’10 signs you’re a badass mother-in-law’. They’ll love it. Maybe. 🙂 x

  16. Laura's Lovely Blog Reply

    What a beautiful letter.
    Yes I too wonder what my children will think of the blog (if it’s still here) when they are older. I hope they will treasure the memories I have left for them. I hope….
    #coolmumclub

    1. MMT Reply

      Oh they will for sure Laura, and your daughter will be looking for where you stored all the handbags, which will, of course be vintage by then 🙂 x

  17. Laura @ Life with Baby Kicks Reply

    What beautiful sentiments, I have the same worries about my boys and I think they will like it. I hope they will see the love. I hope they will find the humour. #bestandworst

    1. MMT Reply

      I think if they inherit their sense of humour from their Mum they’ll be just fine 🙂 thanks for dropping by. x MMT

  18. The Anxious Dragon Reply

    Back from #coolmumclub xx

  19. therealmilitaryhousewife Reply

    Ugh…I’ve got a lump in my throat! Beautifully written and that is exactly how I feel about our daughter.
    A wonderfully post filled will gratitude and love … and wit.
    Have a lovely weekend with your girls.
    xx
    #CoolMumsClub

  20. This Mum's Life Reply

    This is beautiful. It’s not gushy at all, just really honest fantastically written. It’s something that I’ve often thought about, what my children would think if they read my blog. But they never have to know about it, and as it’s anonymous, they wouldn’t be able to identify me or themselves if they found it. But thinking about it, I don’t think I would want them to read it, as it mainly focuses on me, and how I’m coping (or not!) with the big changes having them has brought, which are not always positive. This post has been thought provoking for me, because as yet, I haven’t mentioned how much I do really love them, and how much they do actually mean to me. I probably should include a post like that somewhere! Can’t wait to read further posts!
    #coolmumsclub

    1. MMT Reply

      That sums up exactly why I felt compelled to write this. I’d hate anyone to think I didn’t love, or even like being their mummy! X

  21. newmummyblogcom Reply

    What a lovely lovely post, just beautiful, so heartfelt and lovenly written. You’ve also captured the moment so well, so if in the future your daughters read this, they’ll know what they were like, and how you felt at this moment in their lives. It’s true though, it’s so hard to describe the love we feel for them, and our desire to make the right choices, choices they will seek the most benefit from in years to come. #coolmumclub

  22. wonderfulandaverage Reply

    This is so beautiful, I’m sure your daughters will love reading this when they’re older. Part of the reason I blog is to record my memories and feelings for T to read when he’s older. I hope that I’ll be around to tell him, but no one knows what the future holds. Xx

    1. MMT Reply

      Thank you, it’s crazy to even imagine what technology will be doing when they’re grown up?! X

  23. Caro | The Twinkles Mama Reply

    I think your girls will be delighted and thankful that you started your blog and are charting all theses precious times. In the future when they see your words (if the internet is still there!) they’ll be thrilled to read how much they mean to their mama and how much she has always loved them.

    I don’t think of blogging as an invasion of privacy when it’s written with so much love. Or at least, that’s how I’m hoping my boys will see it 🙂 Thanks so much for sharing and linking up with us at #TwinklyTuesday

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